Faith

Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones. I am not afraid.

Marcus Aurelius

I think I may not have completely moved on from my spiritual crisis phase. I even think I'm not suppose to tag it as crisis since I believe it's normal to feel this. 

I believe in God because I feel good if I do. That's me being honest. I feel safe, confident and ready for fate. But all the church doctrines, I refuse to believe them. I just think goodness, love and faith would still exist without having to go with the standards of religion.

Almost there, Way more to Go

I'm reading...............................
***Nursing and Medical books ( seriously, I haven't read any novels for like 3 months probably because I'm pretty sure I won't be able to finish it.)

I'm watching ............................
***Nothing for now. The most recent was Insidious. I know this is so last year, but I just watched it this year okay.

I'm listening to..........................
***my never ending stocks of Yiruma's music. Kept on hitting reply with Taylor Swift and Olivia Ong.

I'm working..............................
***on my scrubs. reprinting them. running after clinical instructors and pleading for their immediate attention of saving me from the dungeons of not graduating. And how can I forget, thesis, my dear beloved, my ticket to freedom.

I'm stressed out because...............
***common, graduation and all that comes with that word.

I have no time for.......................
***sleep, beauty, love and SLEEP again. 

(Just a proof of my complete sleep starvation: baggy undereye, oily face, droopy eyelids and meatless face?!!?!)

I'm still happy because..................
***I just know life is still wonderful, I see it everyday. And yeah, I'm graduating! Almost!

I miss.......................................
***my life? hahaha. basically the time to be with important people and the time and freedom to do things

I am inspired.............................
***by stumbleupon.com! and my journal of everything. =)

I plan to....................................
***prove to myself that I can be just who I want to be.

I think I'm so.............................
***mediocre right now. 

I love........................................
***life too (copying Kate on this). It's just too wonderful, you can't resist it. <3 

I wish  could.............................
***self review intensively prior to PNLE

I hate that................................. 
***I have so little time to do everything

I'm moving forward...................
*** to a bright future! yey!

The Mafia

JS Prom 2/25/2012, Iloilo Midtown Hotel.
Theme: Mafia/Casino
What I wore: A gold satin dress layered with a black glittery chiffon, white dotted pumps and a black dangling earrings.
Hair and Make up: I did it myself! With Joyz' help on the hair which was a simple bun.


After exactly 8 years of knowing that JS Prom exists (from highschool until college), I finally felt that giddy-straight to the bones excitement most girls share. I did what most girls often do, planned the design of my dress, googled cute hairstyles, watched youtube videos for hair and make up tutorials and sought advice on how to be pretty ready the night before prom. I was thinking about it for like a month!


In my senior year as a nursing student, I was ready to attend the JS. A year ago, I wasn't able to make it because of my part time job, but this year, luckily, the big night ended on a weekend, so yeah, I marked the calendar for it.


However, I would admit I was disappointed of a lot of things. I was just expecting too much fun with friends who in the end, weren't able to make it. Previous plans didn't happen and my night ended roughly off the perfect picture I had in my head.


1.) I was a total wallflower as what I expected. I have since been uncomfortable in social gatherings and this prom is no exception. And my support group aka friends weren't there, well, aside from Zennia, but that's just not really what I had in mind.
2.) We went to Smallville after the event and ended up complaining alot because I literally just want to take off my high heels and gown and go straight to my bed. I was stuck in the middle of  a loud/smoky/alcoholic environment and have to spend my one day allowance to go home.
3.) As of now, I only have TWO pictures of me on that night!!! Two pictures while others have an entire album!

This one came from a photo booth ,thank you so much this is in the party or else I wouldn't have a decent pic for souvenir.

This one from Martin's camera, and just look at how pretty I am in this pic.. (insert sarcasm here)




Anyway, I shouldn't be complaining but I just can't help it. As always, anything that is good is wonderful and anything that is bad is experience. This prom, I guess completely falls in the middle.


Chara.