Faith

Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones. I am not afraid.

Marcus Aurelius

I think I may not have completely moved on from my spiritual crisis phase. I even think I'm not suppose to tag it as crisis since I believe it's normal to feel this. 

I believe in God because I feel good if I do. That's me being honest. I feel safe, confident and ready for fate. But all the church doctrines, I refuse to believe them. I just think goodness, love and faith would still exist without having to go with the standards of religion.