Because We Need a Red Wine

Let's open some bottles of wine and dunk our fingers into choco cakes right now because we are celebrating the glorious fact that finally,

 I'm able to blog using my faithful Eee PC. 

Isn't that neat? 

I mean, I can blabber all I want and it's so easy because this keyboard where I'm typing right this nanosecond is much easier to circumnavigate compared to my phone's Swype keyboard.

 Are you enjoying my chatter? You're not? How could you!

Probably, to those who have been reading my previous posts, you will know that I have spent almost 4 months in a Korean tutorial school. 

That's four long months deducted from my whole existence. 

I just spent them inside a cubicle where only two small chairs and an extra small desk can fit in. But if you only know the glory of being in there,

 you would also love to be in my shoes. :) 

I've always been a sentimental biatch when it comes to goodbyes and drastic changes. I might spend a week or so contemplating how my life could move on after some major alterations in my life pattern. 

So when my students had to leave one by one,

 I kinda entered into an emotional wormhole where I cant' get up as early I used to because I felt that there's no more point in life. 

I felt my endorphin sunk to its lowest point when I started receiving goodbye letters. 

I became a coach potato every time I arrived home. Total slacker. 

I constantly checked my email, kakaotalk, Facebook, twitter and Instagram like a maniac every split of a minute. 

And you know what that meant? 

I was so unmotivated with reality that I sought refuge from the internet. 

That's humanity's downfall. 

So at 5 am last February 28, just a day before my last day at work, I did my routine of checking my email as if expecting a message from a Greek god. 

Then, this header woke me up. It entirely shook my mind and put me back to sane thinking.

My excitement almost reached the peak of Mt. Everest. I read the email from myself, exactly a year ago. It was a surreal experience and I'm encouraging everyone to try FutureMe.

The email I received was this:

Hey. Just wanna remind you that this week kind of drain everything from you.. 

1.) An average of 3-4 hours of sleep every night. Thesis deadline. Scrubs. Exams. Exams. 

*I cringe remembering this. I was a lifeless skeleton back then.

2.) You're here in   , back in teaching Koreans. 

**I met wonderful people in that place. But I'm just happy not being there anymore. It was a rat hole that made breathing hard. Leaving it made wonderful changes in my life.

3.) Three comprehensive exams that you haven't studied. 

*I DREAD EXAMS. ALL EXAMS.

4.) Today, you survived a presentation(NCA) with          . You were so anxious that you think you hyperventilated while talking about metabloic acidosis. But you ended well, less pressure than you expected. 

*Just reading this made my heart beat a little faster than normal. Oral presentations can kill me. Really.

5.)Your ******** adds pressure on you. They have too much expectations about a lot of things. Too much gossips. Too much behind the back comments that you probably don't want to hear. (And you are currently living with this thought "What other people think about you is none of your business." Keep that in mind always!!) 

**Keeping the detail private. It was kinda hard to live around people that showers you with negative vibes. 

6.)Your chatting w/ ********* again 

*One of my "dirty" little secrets. :)

7.) ********************************************* 

8.)************************************************

*8 and 9 are personal issues that I can't publicize.

9.)You're almost there. 1 month to go, you'll graduate from a course you were so unsure of 2 years ago. THE THOUGHT OF GRADUATING is what fuels you every passing day.

*I thank myself for the positivism. Sure thing it helped to keep me alive until now. 

I hope you are working as a nurse now and making your way to your dreams abroad. Love mama and papa. Keep those friendships, they're your treasure. Also, I really wish you did the WANDERLUST adventure. And make sure you don't forget your bucketlist. your journal. your plans for zen, for beauty, for happiness, for love. Keep it up. Life is wonderful, don't forget that!!!!!

**No. I'm not yet working as a nurse. No. My plans for the great wanderlust adventure were not materialized but I'm still working on them. They're just delayed for an unspecified time span. The rest are still ongoing. :)

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Just like what Buddha said:

"Everything that has a beginning, 

has an ending. 

Make your peace with that 

and all will be well."

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